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Tuesday, April 29, 2003
::::leerrrrr:::: takin a very short break from my experimental project wich is due TOMORROW.... actually, about 10 and half hours from now........ im so tired...... meanwhile... amuse yourselves go to http://www.conspire.com cept that its not amusing... but rather thought provoking~ Monday, April 28, 2003
::::stoot:::: i am so bloody lazy..... sigh..... got this from my good fren's blog: -There are actually many unexplainable and unseen "things" going on in this world. Just because we are not exposed to them, we question their existence and don't take it too seriously. In my point of view, it is not always necessary to prove everything scientifically.- http://hamhams.blogspot.com u duno how true this is.... heheheheheh but u noe something? most of us are just plain brainwashed...... how do u know what u r taught all these years in sch... esp in science and geography, is true???? and history has always and will always be written by the victorious...... so u r only reading a one-sided story....... i will never send my child to school... it doesnt matter where i will be when i have my children.... but they will never go to school.... coz i do not want them to be 'sheeple'.... go read the bible... it is a good book with many prophercies that will come true..... if that is the case, alot of ppl are gonna die...... but u noe wat? these ppl are ignorant and dont care.... but i cant.... coz if i die (not by self-termination), i wanna know WHY i died..... and if i know things, i might be able to save myself and my family... no i dont wanna be 'sheeple'..... and sad to say, 98% of my frens are sheeple.... and i m happy that this fren of mine who wrote that, aint a sheeple..... :) Friday, April 25, 2003
::::7 deadly sins survey:::: ANGER 1. Who did you last get angry with? myself 2. What is your weapon of choice? hmmm~~~ 3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? if i have a good reason for hitting him, i will 4. How about of the same sex? i dont think so..... unles i have a VERY good reason... like she is coming towards me with an axe or something... 5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? hmm... im not sure.... my mom? 6. What is your pet peeve? aiyo wat the hell is 'pet peeve'?? SLOTH 1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a while? shit 2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? hahahahhahhaa.... i slept for 28 hours once.... 3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: hmmm.. a fren in japan~.. and my panfren, Fsc 4. What is the last lame excuse you made? im always making lame excuses... how the heck i rem~ 5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? nope~ dont watch tv 6. When was the last time you got a good workout ? hahahahha.... errr.... i shant answer that!.. maybe when i went to play tennis~ hmm does sex count?? MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA *meeef* 7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? for about 1 or 2 hours basically.... GLUTTONY 1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? ehhh... i only like to drink plain water... 2. Meat eaters: pasta bolognese 3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/evening?i cant take alcohol... u dont wanna noe how fast i get drunk... (u can ask justina, karen or wimbo... heheheh) 4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? never 5. Do you have an issue with your weight? has anyone heard me whine abt my weight? im FUCKIN OVERWEIGHT and everyone tells me im not.... well i AM... so THERE.... (but according to BMI, im underweight.. and according to my doctor, im acceptable weight..... but to myself, im overweight..) 6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? im fine with pasta bolognese 7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "Lunch"? no.... only pasta bolognese LUST 1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? *pffftt* errr.... 4? 2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? i think 3? 3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? BUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA........ nope!!!!!!!! actually yes.... but the guy in question just gave me a weird stare LOL~ 4. Have you "done it"? done what? be more specific.... ive done many things~! 5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? miheheheheheheeh *dont tell u~~~~* 6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? nope~.. what gigolo? oh yeahhh!!!! i KNOW a gigolo..... hehehehhe and yes to that question den~ 7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? umn.... why shld i tell u~ 8. Have you ever mentally imagined someone naked while he/she was talking to you? hah, guilty as charged GREED 1. How many credit cards do you own? 0 2. What's your guilty pleasure store? petshops~ 3. If you had 1 million, what would you do with it? buy watever i need and the rest i'll probably give it to wimbo and let him distribute~ oh wait wait..... i prob use it to help animals first~ 4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich....... in the heart. 5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? NEVER!!!! this one of my biggest faults.... 6. Have you ever stolen anything? yes 7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?quite a number... but it doesnt mean im greedy rite? PRIDE 1. What's one thing have you done that you're most proud of? ive done nothing that i think i should be proud of........ but i do try to help animals in need of help...... 2. What's one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? errr.... nothing...!!!! 3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? sigh...... i dont know 4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? im not as competitive as alot of people i know... im slacker... and i get the slacker grades... i deserve what i get... 5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? i dont have any skills in the first place~~~ 6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? i cheat in almost every test 7. What did you do today that you're proud of? i slept for 5 hours in the afternoon~ ENVY 1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? nothing.... i try not to desire anything i dont really need i guess... i mean... i do TRY... but right now, i dont want anything that others have 2. Who would you want to 'Trade Places" with? a water spirit.. or takuya's daughter maybe hahaa 3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? my pet guinea pig, Oreo 4. Have you ever been cheated on? i wont know. but i would prefer to trust... altho it's hard sometimes... n i think i give too little credit to myself..... but yeah... i trust.... but this trust is a thin thin line..... it breaks easily. 5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? yes.... smaller butt please~ 6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? patience 7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? not at all, dude... whoever u are 8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? sleep and pasta bolognese......... Wednesday, April 23, 2003
::::guilt of the pastas:::: oh kii... i couldnt help it... i ate pasta yesterday...... speghetti and fusilli beef bolognese...... i cant help it!!!! im fat and guilty.......... but ok... i had a big shit today... and im happier.... hahahahahahar ok i got my domain name but the thing still takes a few days to errr... be effective... i also have to figure out how to upload the stuffs.... -_______-;; it doesnt help to be a computer idionk..... im STILL craving for pasta........ ummmNnnnm i hope tomolo i can go for that SUNTAN....... i love K.... she's so sweet.. she gave me a note pasted on back coroplast today :) and a flower sticking out at the side..... hehehe i hope we r forever frens.... ppl like her hard to find~ Monday, April 21, 2003
::::happiness:::: this blog has it's fair share..... (or rather.... 'unfair share') of unhappiness... it needs some LAUGHTER!!! some errr....happiness!!! some gay-ness (not in THAT sense), some merriness~~... some.... (i need my thesaurus.... but i dont think i have any in my possession... which i shall add that to my 'wish-list') errr.... where was i? oh yes.... the point is......... I AM HAPPY!!!!!!! thats an understatment.... im BESIDE myself with joy and beaming n smiling til' i turn blue in the face and am able to squeeze poo out without much effort.......... ................. . . .. . . . ... ... ok... SCHOOL IS OVER IN 4 DAYS!!!! SHARE MY JOY PEOPLE!!!! REJOICE!!!!!! schoolisfuckingfinallyoverandicansaybyebyengeeannforeveridonthavetoseeyourunappealingdrabbyouterskinsagain........ oh yeahhh!!!! think of all the TRAFFIC JAM i can AVOID!!!! (i hope i dont land myself in a job near that fuckin place.... but oh im jinxing myself.....) wooohooo!!!!! anyone who sees me now can tell im in a PINK OF HEALTH~~~ i have the sudden desire to be immaculately dressed..... put on make up.... look healthy and have glowing skin.....have pearl white teeth and to love my other half to bits....... even Mephistopheles would say i look too good for hell~....... lookit the HOLIDDAAAYYYSSS~~~~ err... but theoretically speaking, i AINT GOT NO MORE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!! coz i AINT GOT ANYMORE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooohoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel so light and bouncy and rabbit-ty and bunniiiy.... woooot!!! i could bounce!!!!!! i feel......................LIBERATED....... lithe, even............. but den i think of that B*tCh of a marder..................... urgh..... ok i wont think of that for a moment....... i jus wanna say... I MADE IT!!!!!!! 3 YEARS OF SUFFERING!!!!! urgghhh!!!!! wooooooooottt!!! i LOVE YOU STICKIEBOY!!!!!!!!!! *MUUUAAAKKKK* wooooottT~~~ Sunday, April 20, 2003
::::meeef:::: slept at 12am last nite.... woke at 3.30pm this afternoon... HOW COOL CAN THAT GET!?!??!?!?! woohooo~ it is time to sleep again~ Friday, April 18, 2003
::::my shoot:::: wahahahhaa.... i asked K.T and L.H down to help me with my shoot................... K.T took about 2 hours to come down and guess how long i took to finish my shoot??? HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA FIVE MINUTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i is S-L-A-C-K-E-R~~~!!!! just shoot any-o-how.... i didnt even render much help from both gals hehehehe ok i will post a picture i took with them later on monday when i get home...... errrr..... wat else did i do today? nothing much!!!!!!!!!!!!! im happy doin nothing.... oh ya.... i FOUND INDIA KNIGHT'S book yesterday in the library!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant believe my luck............. her book "My Life On A Plate" so cooooollll now i have one less book to order online..... geez.... took me ages to find that stupid novel..... but it is worth it~ hrehehehehe ok... mentioning it makes me wanna read it now... hahahahahar i had a fun-filled and laughter-filled day... tryin to wriggle away from K,T's farts and balancing on L.H's bicycle and laughing like mad with both of them.... ahahahhahahahahaha i is happy~ Wednesday, April 16, 2003
::::full moon:::: hahaha i heard some ppl complain abt my un-updated blog.... hehehhe so here i am, updating it... and i promise i try my bestest to update it as often as possible oki~~!! im not exactly very happy now....must be that full moon....... its only about 40mins away from 17th april 2003.... it's been exactly a year... but i just had feelings murdered in me.... wats in a date anyway? as he said, it's only the event that is special..... it has taken place and will always be there but the date remains as just a date..... ok... i will remember that and i will try to forget all about 17th april since it's only just a date... nothing special..... coz what has happened is afterall, history.... yeah..... i murdered me again.... another feeling/ emotion dead in me....... afterall, if u cant earn ur keep, u jolly well do without these.......... dont expect to stop work just to be with each other coz it just aint gonna happen and it's just another fucking day..... no big deal........ another day tryin to keep myself busy!! hahahahahah i will do some shopping for those piggers.... and find other stuff to do... probably draw or design something... i actually work better when im depressed hehehehehe...... oh yeah... i had this dream last nite... i only told one person so far about it and i think it's a mistake coz i think the contents shld never be revealed to anyone..... but i just woke up and he was the first person i emailed to... so i just blabbered everything HAHAHAHHAHAHA...... harhahrhar.... lets just say this dream is totally different from other dreams... i could actually.......FEEL that this dream is somehow related to the past or future..... very mystical and.......... wow.... i dun even noe how to describe it........ i never felt so much in a dream b4....... it's like in some kinda fantasy-come-true world...... i think if that person i told the dream to is reading this, will laugh his head off...... well if u r, PLS STOP LUFFING!!!!!!! i bought another book today...... "Let's Meet on Platform 8" by Carole Matthews.... interesting book but i smell trouble coz it's only been at most 6hours with this book and im already on chapter 5....... thats like 1/6 of the book............. and i think i will have to look for new books soon.... argh...... does someone have a credit card i can borrow????? the books i want badly can only be found online!!!! coz they no longer bring in those books.... not even in london, soho's bookstores! i know coz i searched every bookstore in soho last december.......... ok.... full moon = bad luck.... my film for expro didnt turn out good... dont ask why.... i dont wish to answer anything regarding school..... the film in my lomocam was exposed coz the thing u use to wind the film up didnt work....... so had to throw that roll away...... wat else went wrong? plenty... thank you andy for giving me that extra film....... thats an extra chance for me to pass expro....... err i guess that's it.....! it's 20 minutes to the date i want to forget.... im not angry. im just.......not good enuff to deserve what i want to have..... and i deserve this. ::::more quizilla quizzes::::  -Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend. What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by Quizilla  Your Heart is Blue What Color is Your Heart? brought to you by Quizilla  pure What's YOUR sexual fetish? brought to you by Quizilla im skeptical on this one...... *raise eyebrow*  You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully, it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into you playing the dominant role MEORW! What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla HAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHARRRRRR~~~~  god you dumbass. What swear word are you? brought to you by Quizilla AAAAAAARGGGHHHHH.... WTF!?!??!?!?!?  You're the sad smile,the one that regrets nearly everything and is constantly wondering about what could have been.You're not happy with your situation and usually blame yourself because of the bad things that have happened.Cheer up. What Kind of Smile are You? brought to you by Quizilla awwwww  You are Psychic! What's Your Magic Power? brought to you by Quizilla oh cool~  YOU ARE MARRIED TO A WoODCHUCK!!! what's YOUR deepest secret? brought to you by Quizilla wat the hell is a woodchuck??!?!? you have for urself a pure thug...damn they are the best! What kind of Boy friend do you need? brought to you by Quizilla  Gray: You poor, depressed child. A rain cloud seems to follow you everywhere. The worst has always got to happen doesn't it? Life is miserable. What color do you see the world in? brought to you by Quizilla sigh am i THAT depressing.....?  You're A Yaoi Boi (Gay Boy)! Sensitive and caring, you just want some boyXboy love! Is that too much to ask? What Type Of Anime Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla ok..... i think this quiz was meant for guys.... (the answers to the questions were so meant for boys in the first place...) ok so im NORMAL...  Psycho. You are overwhelmed by anger. You may even hate the world and everything in it and you believe revenge is the way of the world. An eye for an eye. How Emotional Are You? brought to you by Quizilla yes i hate humans.... all those that i do not know... Friday, April 11, 2003
Thursday, April 10, 2003
::::aiiiiyoooooo:::: i got how long no update blog huh.... long long!!!!!!!!!!!! wat else is long??? hmMMmMMmm.................................. BUNNY's EARS!!! woohoo! gettin my digicam this sunday!! so happy! woooot |
