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Monday, September 29, 2003
::::today:::: he wrote a song for me!!!!!! WOW!!!! i shant post it here tho.. it's personal... it's just the lyrics.... hahahaha it sounds more like a poem.... i love it so much!! HAHAHAHAH this is the FIRST time anyone ever wrote a song/poem for me.... i wrote a poem for him more than a year ago.... i wonder if he remembers it.... its starting is SOMETHING like that....(i really cant remember the exact words): If only stars can be picked from the sky... Light up ur once bright and sparkling eyes.... hahaha i may seem like a normal kinda poem... but had a hidden meaning... i'll see if i can find the poem somewhere... hehehe im happy... for now....~ ::::rambles:::: read a good friend of mine's blog...... she just passed her birthday 2 days back..... wow.... lucky her... got to celebrate 3 days with her friends.... actually me and another fren had a surprise for her.... but she wasnt free to meet up with us... hahahah she still dont know what we up too... anyway, she would know when she reads this entry of mine... kekekekek anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOYCIE!!!!!!!!!!! i actually sent her a picture sms which she sent to me on my birthday last year!!! LOL! the chicken chicken one.... she's so lucky... many people celebrating her bdae... hahahaha bdaes for me........ i cant really remember many of the 19 bdaes i had so far... i do remember my 15th bdae... it coincide with Chen Song Ling (Nnadia)'s fan club meeting and my friend asked me to go along.... it was held at Raffles Country Club.... really had ALOT of fun with Nnadia (we actually call her 'Chung Chung') was a wild evening.... i was in the same 'group' as she for the games section and we had to produce a shoelace... so she quickly stripped off hers.... and guess what...? she doesnt know how to string it back..... -______- i mean.... she's like..... so much older than i am...?? so end up i tie it back for her LOL~... den we sang karaoke with her.... one of the DJs chose sammi cheng's song and it was in cantonese so she didnt know how to sing it... someone threw the mike to me and sorta.. saboo me to sing... so i did... and chungchung was so surprised that i knew how to sing in cantonese.. she got so hyper... she sang with me.... HAHAHHAHA... side by side.... the last section was she gave out 3 TVB's watches... it was lucky draw... i was actually standing at the front of the crowd... but when i heard it was lucky draw, i squeezed to the back coz i knew i was never lucky in lucky draws.... but hey... the 3rd name she pulled out was my name!!! and the person in charge whispered to her that it was my birthday that day... hahahahahaha she pulled me out from behind and told everyone to sing birthday song for me..... i was like.... totally red in face..... den she said something like it's a kinda 'yuan fen'... affinity........ yeah... i cant remember where the TVB watch is.... i wore it to school for a year... den i stopped wearing watches... hmm.. make a mental note to find it.. ya? the second most memorable bday is last yr... with who else...? hhahaha.... will always remember how he stuck all the candles into the cake... looked like battlefield.... i remember it was a rainy day..... but i was feeling so happy........ we did many things that i shant say here... hahahahah...... but i was truely happy and remembering that day brings tears into my eyes...... i miss him alot....... his birthday is less than a month away from now..... i remember his last birthday too.... i remember how i searched high and low, went specially out of the way to orchard Forum (and got lost in process), just to find packs of...... long candles.... u know those long and slender types? he wasnt pleased i was late tho..... but he forgave me after 5 mins of pouting... hahahaha... he didnt know about the candles hahaha... actually this was on the day before his bdae.... i was planning to give him the cake and his presents at 12midnight... that night, TV showed the Matrix and after that, Gattaca... both shows were cool..... Gattaca ended at 12am.... so i told him i had to go downstairs to get 'something'... (his cake was in the refridgerator downstairs)... he insisted that he went with me coz it's 'not safe' (HAHAHHAA) but in the end managed to go down and get the cake... had problems lighting the stupid candles..... i wanted to poke in the number of candles corresponding with his age but decided that the cake would be....errr.... uneatable after that..... den i gave him the clay figurine i made for him (he named it Orange).... and a t-shirt i made for him... hahaha... memories..... i remembered his birthday better than mine...... his birthday is coming soon and i wont be able to be with him...... i wonder if anybody would know this feeling..... i really wanna be with him so much........ and on my brithday...? i only want to be with him...... thats ALL i ask for... every year.... every single year...... i dont need presents.... i dont need cakes.... i only need him............ same for every xmas day... i only want him close to me.... in fact, i want him close to me everyday.... every month... every year.... birthdays and xmas is only an excuse to be with him... hahaha... maybe...... i miss him too darn much.......... Saturday, September 27, 2003
::::im sick...:::: no no... not sick in the mind.... (hmm... maybe i AM..) ive got baaaad fever..... this is all i can manage... took me so long to type this sentence.... keep having typos and gota deltee... delelt.. delete thenm them,.,,,....... Monday, September 22, 2003
::::moral of the story...?:::: lemme tell u a true story.... when i was in primary 5, i skipped one remedial class and wandered out of school with a pri 3 boy (who was very notorious... and his elder brother was the most notorious 'little gangster' in my school...) we wanted to go to the bowling alley in the old woodlands center to play the arcade games (i remember STREET FIGHTER... yes.. the first version..) woodlands garden is just across the road from my school. at that time, the pond in woodlands garden was undergoing some 'renovation' or widening works and the whole area was blocked out by the metal sheets. we walked down the line of metal sheets and nearing to the main entrance of the garden, he noticed fruits on the tree.. and so he started climbing the tree... then he sat on one of the branches and said to me in mandarin,"hey i can see them working on the pond from where i am... it's cool and muddy!" he picked one of the fruits and started eating it.... i very much wanted to climb the tree.... but... 1. i was wearing a skirt (my uniform)... but this wasnt the main reason coz i had a pair of shorts on under the skirt... 2. my parents have warned me about these 'dangerous acts' that i should never attempt as it may result in broken bones, head injuries, etc etc.... but u know what? i swung myself up from the lowest branch and started to scale the tree.... i leaned back on another branch not far away from the boy and picked a fruit... i remember... the fruit looked like a starfruit... except that it was smaller and very much greener.. (i dont know if starfruits grow in singapore.. but i always thought it was an unriped starfruit....) i sank my teeth into it..... it was hard and VERY sour... i spat the mouthful out and threw the fruit on the ground...... but from where i was, i could see the garden being revamped.... i could see the muddy body of water that the boy was talking about.. yeah... i know.. "big deal...!" yes... it WAS a big deal to me then... when i was barely 11 years old.... if not, i wouldnt have remembered it...... we climbed down and continued to walk to the bowling alley.... and we spent quite some time challenging each other in STREET FIGHTER..... looking back, many things could have happened to me.... 1. the most important being, i might have fell from the tree and really broke my bones... and worse, injure my spine and become paralysed.... 2. i could have died of food poisoning... eating a fruit which i dont even know if it was edible.... and besides, it might have been infested with germs or something.... (but im very sure that boy is still alive now...) 3. i would have been punished very severely by my parents and teachers had they found out what i did...... in FACT, my teacher DID find out and worse, he didnt even want to talk to me.. all he said was that he wanted to talk to my PARENTS...... but i BEGGED him not to..... i cried real hard as i was very terrified of my mom's wrath..... he sent me to the principal instead and i got caning on my palm..... but... do u think i was sad...? do u think i regretted the incident? NO! coz that was what i WANT TO DO.... i followed my own heart..... if i had told myself... i WILL FALL I WILL FALL I WILL FALL.... i would probably had slipped or missed my footing just because i am thinking of it all the time..... whatever that happens to a person, can only depend on THAT PERSON him/herself.... had i not climbed that tree... had i not eaten that fruit.... had i not skipped class...... i would not have gained that experience..... "have u climbed a tree?" "yes i have!" "have u ever eaten something that u dont know if it was poisonous or not?" "yes i have!" "have u ever played truant?" "yes i have!" "do u regret any of the above?" "no i dont and i will never... coz i followed my heart and i gained invaluable experience and knowledge that can never be taught in classrooms... and i am glad to say im one of the few girls.... in fact, i only know one other girl who has ever climbed a tree....." in FINDING NEMO, marlin (father clownfish of nemo) asked crush (father turtle of squirt) "bbbut how do u know if they are ready...?" "well... when they know, u'll know.. u know...?" whatever decision i make... is mine... whatever experience i gain, is definitely mine... when things go wrong, i want to hold full responsibility for my own actions and if im deprived of that even, WHAT am i going to be...? im not a left brainer.... and sorry... i cannot think like one... but i do know... my chances of survival out there... is higher than that of a person who 'follows their head' what i dont have... i make it up somewhere else... this is called the balance in life..... and one more thing... i aint a stupid person....... im not retarded... Saturday, September 20, 2003
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
::::meet:::: listen to the winter dying away i woke up in a certain year, a certain month and on a certain date..... im thinking, im waiting, im looking forward to... but that's not how the future works... rainy day, evening, looking out of the car's window, there's someone in the future waiting... turn left, turn right, look forward, how many turns do i have to take till true love comes? who will i meet? what would i say to him? the person im waiting for, how far is he into the future? i hear the wind, coming from the subway and the crowds, i queue up, holding a 'ticket to love'.. i am flying forwards, flew past a sea of time... we all were once hurt by love. i look at the roads, the entrance to dreams are a little narrow. meeting you, is the most beautiful 'chanced meeting' one day, my riddle will be solved............. Monday, September 15, 2003
::::im still lethargic:::: is there some medical problem with me? im sooo lethargic.. and i find 24 hrs a day not enuff... I NEED TO STUDY!! but i cant study and work at the same time... im already down to 7 students but i still feel so SIAN......... i got no time to study my japanese!!!!!! i got no time to do my art work and my graphic novel!!!!!!!!!!!!! sheesh... can i have more time please? i need to sleep too u knoe... im gettin super irritable.. super headakes and i dont even understand what i am typing... i stayed up to 2am last nite..... JUST to install mac OSX on the ancient computer... took so damn bloody long... i cleaned the whole animal area yesterday tho.... bathed the 7 pigs (and fell even more in love with Oreo... he's the BEST guinea pig in the world!!!!) gave oreo the new food dish i bought..... i tried laying newspapers and just scattering some woodshavings on the bottom of the cages.... but in the next minute, the newspapers become part of the woodshavings also... (rolls eyes)..... gave them hay... need to go and buy their carrots.... they seem to be begging for it........... i cleaned all the hamies' tanks too! i finally seperated the 3 brothers... put them into 3 huge tanks with plastic toys and tunnels... - bad move.... coz they chew chew chew chew the toys at night.... ah well.... i put the old old campbell (aint even got a name) into a medium sized tank.. and gave him more toys..... the gerbils had wooden bloks to chew on.... (they are gettin fatter...) my room smells nice now.... no fruit flies!!!! nyaah nyaahh nyaaahhh! i bort myself a maroon jacket... looks sorta 'retro' bought it from Samuel and Kevin........ i think F4 advertises for them and i bet the salesgals in there love F4 to bits.... they have huge posters of F4 and they play F4 songs...... yucks. if not for the nice lookin jacket, i wont even be in there......... i watched TURN LEFT TURN RIGHT......... it's worth $6.50... but not worth $8......... get what i mean? Chen Zhi Cai (edmund chen) is irritating... just plain irritating.... and the gal (not gigi), who got to act as Takeshi's 'gf', well... LUCKY HER........ i just realised they dont have screen names..... sigh.. all numbers which i cant be bothered to remember... this show is weird..... i wanna study... in library now.. hahaha im rambling!!!!!!!!! wooohooo! Wednesday, September 10, 2003
::::funniness::::  My inner child is one year old!
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
::::browntown's SNE:::: im a fan of this mr. brown's site... damn true... all the things he says... more singaporeans shld learn to be like him.. den i will have more frens.... HAHAHAHAH ------------------------------------------------------------------ Singapore National Education Part 89 by mr brown Weeks of 18 August 2003 to 3 September 2003 (Feel free to distribute for non-profit and non-commercial purposes but keep my byline, email address and URL intact please. Thanks) I have also learned lately: 1. That the NEL was delayed by 87 minutes recently because of one of the massively complex computer systems running it using up its monthly quota for delaying the NEL. 2. That in line with the new through train plan of allowing super special students to enter National Junior College at Secondary 3, and skip the O Levels to do the A Levels direct, some nurseries are thinking of offering a through train program for their two-year-olds to enter Primary One at four, skipping kindergarten K1 and K2. The toddlers will need to pass a three-hour academic test, a reasoning test and an interview in order to qualify. They will also need to be able to wear their own pampers and eat an entire meal by themselves to be shortlisted. 3. That students from all-boys and all-girls schools are looking forward to dating the opposite sex a whole two years early if they get into junior college on the NJC through train program. Maybe there should also be a hormone entrance exam too. 4. That home loan interest rates are up, and CPF is about to get cut from 36% to 33%. And the CPF ceiling will be cut from $6000 to $4500 (I bet most of you do not even know there WAS a ceiling. In other words, you guys earning $6000 per month or more now will be getting CPF based on a $4500 salary). Let the property bloodbath begin. 5. That Singaporeans need to be prepared to accept wage reform because our salaries are three times more than Malaysians, and (insert number here) times more than (insert country here). And of course, our MPs are the inverse, grossly underpaid compared to these countries. 6. That there is a new campaign to help Singaporeans improve their economy, "Bend Down Singapore". "Chasing the Pink $ Some mainstream businesses here are pitching their products and services at gays, whom they see as trendsetters with high spending power" -ST 17 August 2003 7. That there is talk that Gay World may be rebuilt to become a new tourist attraction. 8. That, for the last friggin' time, PM Goh did not say BG Lee slapped Dhana. PM Goh was making a joke. A JOKE, ok? Sheeesh. 9. That in order to help the unemployment situation, the Government has created a new statutory board, the Works Development Agency. Some have suggested that we may be creating too many statutory boards and civil servant posts, and costing the taxpayer money, while increasing the red tape that hamper new businesses. One idea that has come up is to merge some of these government and quasi-government agencies into one. The Government will create a new task force and statutory board to make this happen. 10. That there is a new mini Visa card, the Visa Mini, that is 25% smaller than the MasterCard SideCard (an elongated, width-compressed card). Smaller cards, same size credit card bill 11. That the Malaysian Government is changing the Malaysian national anthem. It will be slowed down following complaints that an upbeat version introduced in 1992 "has not induced enough pride in the country". This is based on the well-documented study from Netherlands (or somewhere) that slower anthems are generally more patriotic, and faster anthems, especially Hip Hop versions, tend to make citizens feel less patriotic, because they cannot sing the words fast enough. 12. That the title of the anthem may also be changed from Negaraku (My Country) to MalaysiaKu (My Malaysia), which many Malaysians oppose. Other titles being considered by the Cabinet include AirKu (My Water) and Vision2020Ku (My Vision 2020), and We Will (We Will) Rock You. 13. That new arrangements for the Malaysian national anthem will be submitted to the Cabinet this week for approval. Treatments being considered include Classical, Mariah Carey Power Ballad, Hip Hop, Slow Rock, and Heavy Metal. Several arrangements of the anthem will be submitted by the National Symphony Orchestra, the RTM Orchestra, as well as the police and army orchestras. Other music arrangers being shortlisted include Puff Daddy (feat. Missy Elliot), Willie Nelson and the guy who did the Myojo Mee Jingle that is being used by many handphone owners as a ringtone. 14. That Malaysians are probably wondering why the Cabinet has so much time in their hands to mess about with the National Anthem. Does that mean there will be a Ministry of National Anthem Upgrading? 15. That PM Goh gave his speech on Sunday night, and many patriotic young Singaporeans tuned eagerly to watch Black Hawk Down on HBO. 16. That Singapore births are heading towards a 26-year low. The number of babies born in the first six months of this year has fallen at such a rate that if it continues, Singapore will, at year-end, record its lowest number of births in 26 years. So for the next 6 months, Singaporeans are encouraged to make up the shortfall by having more unprotected sex. Some activities planned include More Sex Week, Babies Are Cute Week, and a general ban on contraceptives for an entire month (very likely to be the December school holidays to enable teachers participate as well). The Government is also rethinking a ban on pornographic material, but it needs to conduct further research to determine whether it will lead to higher births, or just more masturbation. Another initiative being looked into is a Go Home Early on a Weekday to Have Sex With Your Spouse Day, for married civil servants. 17. That it has been suggested that Singaporeans may need longer loans to service their mortgage if the CPF gets cut. I agree. You may as well extend your loan to 30 or 40 years. You will be working way past 55 anyway, since your nest egg is now screwed, and you may not even be able to withdraw your own CPF at 55 if your account has less than the new minimum sum. Oh, and don't forget to have more sex and babies. 18. That this dude flying a 33-year-old Beechcraft Bonanza F33 A developed electrical problems and intruded into Singapore's airspace, resulting in two Republic of Singapore Air Force (RSAF) A-4 Super Skyhawks being scrambled intercept it. The A-4 Super Skyhawk is the advanced version of the A-4 Not-So-Super Skyhawk. The pilot, Mr Faria e Mello, is a wheelchair bound former Portuguese Air Force pilot, was doing his second round the world flight. It is suspected that due to the electrical failure, pilots of the Skyhawks had to use hand signals and a quick round of Charades. Unconfirmed reports by eye-witnesses indicated that the private plane was guided down by the A-4 Super Skyhawks by following a bumper sticker on the lead Skyhawk, which read "If you can see this bumper sticker, you are flying too close to my Skyhawk." 19. That there is no news on the development of the A-4 Even-More-Super Skyhawk. 20. That the F-16s were not scrambled because their road tax was not renewed yet. Also, they needed to send something that flew slower because F-16s would be too fast for a little private plane. 21. That when you are a brave wheelchair-bound pilot who has flown around the world before and on this your second attempt, you are flying a plane sticken with electrical power failure, with no radio, no lights, and you are manually cranking down the landing gear with one hand, while guiding the plane with the other, with a torchlight in your mouth, the last thing you want to see are two A-4 Super Skyhawks sent, not to help you, but to intercept you because you have wandered into restricted airspace. 22. That according to BG Yeo, Singaporeans can expect painful adjustments ahead. In his words, "Adjustments will be necessary and some of them will be painful." In case any Singaporeans do not understand the kind of adjustments we will have to make, allow me to illustrate. You know when you have hemorrhoids and the doctor has to check to see how much bad it is, and he puts on a rubber glove and then he sticks his hand up your rectum? It will be more painful than that. 23. That Singaporeans will have to give up any illusions of a Swiss standard of living as promised by the Government and accept the fact that we will be lucky if we attain a Swiss Cheese standard of living. 24. That local DJs need Geography lessons. Heard on Power 98: Guy DJ: Hey, listen up, here is something about an Italian man... Girl DJ: Ooh, red hot Latin Lover! 25. That there are some people who would pay good money for Singapore school uniforms for girls. And it is not for educational purposes. By Lee Kin Mun (Copyright 2003) Singapore National Education Part 88 by mr brown Weeks of 11 July 2003 to 18 August 2003 (Feel free to distribute for non-profit and non-commercial purposes but keep my byline, email address and URL intact please. Thanks) I have also learned lately: 1. That if the Armed Forces also follows the new Hire Gays policy, we may soon see new ranks like Rear-Admirer. 2. That Singaporeans kow peh kow bu cannot get Government to un-ban chewing gum. US Government kow peh kow bu can. Thank goodness Wrigleys sells gum, not gun. 3. That you ask for political space and you get bungy jumping, sugar-free chewing gum, and bar-top dancing. 4. That the biggest winner in the Singapore-KL Water Debate may well be the newspapers and the printing industry. 5. That when you have no job, no money, no food on the table, $300 for a commissioning sword is as good a deal as any. Honour cannot eat one. 6. That according to a BBC report, scientists have discovered that regular masturbation cuts the risk of prostate cancer! But I feel that it may be a poor trade-off if you go blind. http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/3072021.stm 7. That it is ok to cut the SBS 502 bus route between Sengkang and the city, because it duplicates the NEL, but leave the 502 stretch from Boon Lay to Marina intact, even though it duplicates the SMRT. 8. That the ridership for the North East Line (NEL) is turning out to be much lower than anticipated. SBS was expecting 250,000 riders a day, but they are now seeing 150,000 a day. You North East Corridor buggers better start taking the NEL, ok? If numbers do not pick up, wait I close the Punggol Station, the Kovan Station and selected parts of Serangoon Station then you know. But to help you guys along, I will cut out bus routes that used to give you direct rides so that you can enjoy the increased standard of living by taking bus, then MRT, then bus again. 9. That ridership on NEL might be low because people disagree with the definition of the word "interchange" to describe Outram and Dhoby Ghaut station. Some riders view the "interchanges" as two stations of the same name located so far apart they may as well be in different constituencies, linked by a very long underground tunnel (if it is underground, maybe people will not notice that they just walked 15 minutes). But "interchange" probably sounded better. "I took the NEL to the Outram Interchange and switched to a Eastbound train to Tampines." ...sounds better than: "I took the NEL to the Cantonment Road Station, walked more than a mile underground to the old Outram Station, then after getting lost underground, I switched to a Eastbound train to Tampines." 10. That during the height if the SARS crisis, some school children were sent home because they failed the temperature taking test. Parents cried foul because their kids missed school and did not get an "A" in Temperature. 11. That if you were an air stewardess who got retrenched a few months before your second contract was up (thereby depriving you of a gratuity which was more than the retrenchment package that you got), you had better not go to the press and talk about it. Or else the airline will write into the forum to defend their retrenchment exercise, and as an aside, mention that you had taken 75 days of casual medical leave between April 2000 and March this year. And your work record included failing a safety and emergency procedure test which led to your grounding; being uncontactable while on standby duty; being counselled after passenger complaints about you on-board attitude and failing to report for duty for a flight. Ouch. Talk about kicking The Retrenched in the balls twice over. 12. That NTU professor say 4 in 5 new jobs went to foreigners. MOM say 1 in 10 only. While the statisticians argue over methodology, 100,000 Singaporeans are still jobless. Better go and buy 4510 for 4D lottery now. 13. That when people starting bitching about toothless local unions (or the single Big One), it is time to run articles about militant unions elsewhere and how terrible they are. 14. That when the 4-in-5 announcement was made, there were originally three economists. When the Government gently rebutted the announcement of NTU economists with a nuclear strike, only two NTU economists apologised for an "honest error" (what is an "honest error" anyway? Is there a "dishonest error"? If it is dishonest, could it still be an error or should it be a lie?) So what happened to the NTU panel's chairman, Dr. Lim Chong Yah, who presented the team's findings? This is very X-Files. 15. That, based on my calculations, gleaned from many reliable Government sources, like the Singles Development Unit website, I proudly announce that there are actually NO jobs lost to foreigners at all. So you can all be assured that all your jobs are safe. Those of you who have jobs still, I mean. 16. That Singaporeans really believe that only 1 in 10 jobs went to foreigners. Riiiiiight. 17. That at the National Day Parade, they featured for the first time, Breakdancers! And young citizens engaged in organised and legal graffiti. 18. That there was no Gay and Retrenched contingent at NDP 2003 19. That many watching NDP 2003 were looking for other aspects of Singapore's loosening up, after seeing the spontaneous display of planned breakdancing and organised graffiti, but were disappointed when the giant bar-tops with gyrating dancers did not show up on the field. 20. That everyone was looking forward to the exciting two and a half minutes long of fireworks at the NDP, except for the poor sod who was taking a dump in the loo when it happened and missed the whole thing. Wow, a whole two and a half minutes. That's one long fireworks session, man. 21. That at one segment of the NDP, balls made to look like heads (yes, smiling human heads), which represented various jobs, were made to roll down the stadium... Thanks for reminding us of the falling headcounts and heads rolling in companies everywhere. 22. That DPM Lee Hsien Loong reassured workers that restructuring the wage system will not mean an across-the-board wage cut. But BG Yeo says, "The pressure is across the board because of the large number of skilled workers, technicians, engineers, programmers and others from these countries who are prepared to do the same work for much less money." So you will not get wage cuts but you will do the same work for much less money. Got it. 23. That if you get on the through train plan offered by NJC and enter Junior College at Secondary 3, skip the O Levels, and go direct to do the A Levels, and you fail, you will be one of the elite group of 18-year-olds with only PSLE as your highest qualification. On the Express Train of Education, it will be like your friends took the NEL to HarbourFront and you got off at Buangkok. 24. That there is a new word in town, with a wealth of meanings: "Buangkok". Buangkok: verb; To reach a dead end, or to make an annoucement of bad news at the last minute. "I was on the through train to academic success but along the way, I failed too many exams, my academic career got derailed, and I buangkoked". "The constituents were looking forward to the improvements to their public transport, but at the last moment, the bus company buangkoked that they will be cutting the services." Buangkok: noun; a white elephant, or a lame excuse "The Second Link is, to this day, a buangkok." "Don't give me any buangkoks for not handing in your homework, you sly crafty fox!" 25. That unions are supposed to work quietly behind the scenes so that the companies retrenching workers can save face and not lose business from the adverse publicity of retrenching workers. Thus saving jobs of those who were not axed. "Singapore Unions: Fighting Quietly to Save the Jobs of Your Friends". By Lee Kin Mun (Copyright 2003) Monday, September 08, 2003
::::madness quizzes::::  You're depressed. Really you are. And you definitely have a reason. You often space out and stare at things blankly, even if you're normally hyper and energetic. This is because nothing really seems important anymore. You might just be sad right now, or you might be manic depressive. Don't worry. Have some cocoa and stuff'll be ok. How Depressed are You? brought to you by Quizilla  You are the Docile Donkey, You take problems as it is, nothing really bothers you, and you don't let anything make you feel different, but there is always the little things that bother you, when they do, you react in ways that people will be mortified to see. See you on the 10'o'clock news. What anger personality do you have? brought to you by Quizilla Sunday, September 07, 2003
::::he has a song for me....!:::: "Lady, are you crying, do the tears belong to me Did you think our time together was all gone Lady, you've been dreaming, I'm as close as I can be And I swear to you our time has just begun Close your eyes and rest your weary mind I promise I will stay right here beside you Today our lives were joined, became entwined I wish that you could know how much I love you Lady, are you happy, do you feel the way I do Are there meanings that you've never seen before Lady, my sweet lady, I just can't believe it's true And it's like I've never, ever loved before" guess who sang it? hehe btw, i can sms him!! and vice versa!!! sooooo goddamned happy........ i went to the zoo with 5 little cute monkeys to the zoo to see the monkeys... (haha) yesterday.... met them at 9.30, and one of the parents drove all 7 of us to the zoo. from woodlands to mandai is really very fast! bort the tics at 9.48am... went in at about 9.50am.... all of them were so shyyyy..... sigh... den walk here walk there..... so tiring.... took so many pictures of animals and spiders and iguanas...... had up-close-and personal with: 1. mr. iguana in the reptile trail..... he decided to plonk himself right in the middle of the path RIGHT at the entrance....... resulting in the 5 monkeys not daring to go in and clogging up the entrance.... so i had to go in first and it was sooooo funny to see the carefully walk AROUND the stupit scaly thing......... the next person coming in ALMOST stepped on mr.reptillian........ i had to go "hello! hello!! helloo??!?" and when i got his (the human, not the reptile) attention, i pointed to the reptile right at his feet and he got a huge shock..... and jumped a step back...... (lol)... and he said "thank u..." (blush blush) AHAHAHAHAh felt like roaring with laughter there and then.... but hmmm.... im not that bad....... 2. a two toe tree sloth...... he was just hanging on a small tree NEXT to the kids and they couldnt see him...... took awhile for their eyes to adjust......... 3. mr goatee.... i duno how he managed to escape from the enclosure in the children's zoo......... but he looked amused... and posed for my camera...... i was cautious tho... coz he might just decide to bang me or eat my camera strap or something.... yeah.. i was THAT close.... lucky he didnt smell...... 4. many spiders...... gawd... there must be like 1000000000 spiderwebs in the zoo! 5. butterflies...... they seem to like to stick themselves to humans...... and the kids seem to be terrified of them...... i wonder why.......... 6. kitten......... yes... kitten........ WTF is a kitten doin on the zoooo???? it was just left at an exhibit of the Asmat tribe, people of the rainforest...... it was tossing and turning in a fruit basket and biting off the skin of a toy onion....... the kids went off to look for a zookeeper but couldnt find any... i had to call the zoo (good to have their hotline stored in ur mobile) to send someone to get the kitten coz many people were already thinking of stuffin it into their own bags...... i managed to coax it into my arms and the kids were higly amused and each of them wanted to stroke the panic-stricken mewing chicken...err i mean KITTEN......... a female indian zookeeper came and i passed the kitten to her... she didnt looked pleased that i was carrying it... but WTF i didnt pinch it from any exhibit....... so fuck her..... me, being nice, said thank u to her anyway even tho I WAS doing the favor..... she just gave a fake smile and walked off.... B-I-T-C-H the kids asked why couldnt they bring it home.... and i said their are many other kittens outside the zoo... it doesnt have to be THIS one.. besides, there is high chance that mommy cat is around and there are other orphaned kittens out there waiting to go to good homes..... hmm... come to think of it, maybe they breed cats to feed to the bigger cats (the lions... etc)... ooo... we took our lunch at KFC..... after that the monkeys played at the playground..... only the eldest boy (12 yrs old) decided that he was too old to run around like other monkeys........ the kids only warmed up to one another after lunch....... we walked walked walked walked.....and then we walked walked walked again...... ah well......... i suddenly lost interest in typing........ hmmm... maybe should mention the dream i had last nite....... i dreamt of him again.... and this time in the dream, the feelings were so intense... i missed him SOOOOO much... i woke up with pillow drenched with my tears again............. sigh....... byebye Thursday, September 04, 2003
::::what kinda depression...?:::: this is a different kinda depression im in now... last time, it's becoz im too afraid of losing someone/ something........ now........ it's becoz......... i duno.... im no longer afraid of losing him.... coz he's after all, gone for so long (to me, it's a long time.....) his presence is not around me....... i can get over it easier....... but im in depression becoz i have to make a decision....... whether i wanna be with him or not....... where i wanna go... what i wanna do..... im depressed becoz i feel a chunk of me is gone..... im no longer what i was just a month ago..... im jus feeling lost...... n somewhat, somehow, im not being heard......... my voice is drowned by his...and my family's maybe its becoz i duno how to talk or express myself...... i jus duno how to talk.. i jus dono what to do... n i am very very willing.... to get away from all these.... away from this sickening place and my family... away from him...... i jus wanna be isolated........ i want it so much.......... Wednesday, September 03, 2003
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