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Sunday, September 29, 2002
::::been awhile...::::
::LOMO and such...::
went around to take pictures~!!! yeeaaahHH!!
i went on saturday....hMmmm..
first stop was Kranji carpet grass plantation.......hahaha...purposely went around 5pm coz that's when they turn on their sprinklers.... hehehehe
used my lomo, the school's NIKON FM10 (slr) and stickerboy's slr....
took pix of the water and also some portraits of the malaysian/ indian workers......
hope the pix turn out well!!!!
*EXCITED!!!!* cant wait to collect the prints today!!!!!!
i had stomachache and needed the loo so badly.....so we went up to Kranji War Memorial....
CAN U BELIEVE IT????? THERE IS NO TOILET IN THE WHOLE GODDAMMIT PLACE!!!
took the bus all the way to bugis....
hahahha...
den took few shots of kids playin at the fountain...
DAMN CUTE....
but i got feeling most would be underexposed.....
*gaAa*....most were night shots~....
::last day::
yesterday (29 sept) was my last day in PetEssentials....
the Schnauzer i like most is sold.....
just as well....it's my last day......i won't feel so sad~...
her new owners are going to take her only on the 12th of october so i guess i'll pop back soon to take pix of her~
since my last day, gave a treat to stickerboy~....
ate at pasta mania at scotts..den went to watch a movie...."Slap her, She's French"
hahahhaa...very funny movie.....~
ah well....
havent felt any urge to go online lately.....
that explains why i didnt update this void for sometime....
think i go clean the room...
it stinks....
1. AHHHH i got my copy of SLG's NIGHTMARE AND FAIRYTALES!!!!!!! *yAhoO~Ooo*
at least SOMETHIN to brighten up my gloomy week....
was thinking if 'Gloomcookie' is nice.....but err....i'll save it for later.... hahahha
always fancied FSc's work~....hehehe so happi to get NNF...
2. AHHHHHHH!! got my copy of FF10 vcd!!!!!
watched disc one.... aiyo...it's realli the WHOLE game play minus most of the battles...hahahahahha~
not bad laaa.....altho i wished i had got the DVD version instead....
3. AHHHHHHHH! got my nike messenger bag.....woohoo~~
4. AHHHHHHHH!!! got ONE PIECE! book 24~....saw the jap version of 25 in kino today.... *slaps CY's translators to work FASTER*
5. AAAAHHHH!H!!!! got my xray done for my back bone....
doc gave me some pills too....painkiller and muscle relaxer rolled into one heheheheheh~ makes me drowsy~....
6. AAAHHHH!!!! nothing else is nuuuuUuu already.....
u noe....how the feeling is like to love someone?
but somehow or rather, he takes little interest in you and u take as little interest in him...
i wanna noe the reasons.....but can only come out with that
1. we dont realli love each other..
2. i'm seriously far too young to understand what he is going thru....
in other words, there IS an age gap.....
this had been bothering me past few days and i SENSED that what will happen last nite, WILL happen...
probably becoz it's self-fufilling prophercy.....but me and him....called it quits.......
my feelings?
mixed...
Angry, Sad, yet happy....relieved....
angry at what he said....
he said that he would marry a foreigner just to get out of singapore.....
so now, he is FREE to do WHATEVER he fucking wants.......
coz i LOOK DOWN on ppl who DEPEND on others to get what they want....but thats not all.....i LOOK DOWN on ppl who BETRAY their feelings.....BETRAY their souls....
but u know.....if he can be happy, den i'll say 'go ahead'....
HAH!
he's not the last guy on earth....
leaving him doesnt make it the end of the world....
1. a Lomo camera...
2. a Digi camera (2 megapix and abv and competible with mac)
3. a Bicycle...
4. a nicer smelling and neater room...
5. a pimple-free face...
6. a back without aches...
7. a head without aches...
8. a manual-auto camera...
9. a polaroid camera....
10. a straitjacket....(to keep me from destroying myself by wanting all those things so badly.....)
of coz.....i cant resist.....but add that i would like a pair of wings too...... so i can have the ability to FLY....
-_-
SIGHHHH!!!
ps: eddie suggested my domain name to be - www.sighhh.com
haha
but it will most likely be www.inoriz.com
will keep ya informed.... once i finish the layouts and designs and ready to uploadz....
have been mixing up all the dates and getting all confused for the past THREE weeks..... guess wat?? i JUST found out i've been staring at the AUGUST month of the calender...... ARGH.... i can be soooo tuuuuupid at times.... *sigh*.....
btw, my calender is cute ok..... pictures of many hamsters~ heheheh maybe i shld take a foto of it?? heheheh~
::reign of fire::
watched REIGN OF FIRE with my bf yesterday.... hehehhehe
was quite good....only that some parts, the bluescreen wasnt done very well... umnn.... meaning we could tell easily that the background was fake..... (was wondering if they did it on purpose.....coz it was REALLY obvious...)
but i like the dragons~~!! esp the male one.....very HUGE... hehehehe.... (pls ok....i mean his whole body size is larger than the females ok....not his b***s huge oki...)
::X-files::
aww....left one more episode to go.....before they say 'bye bye' forever....
it's been 9 yrs (??) since they made their debut and i only watched X-files this last season.... :(
why? i blame my MOM....
hahahhah coz she always told me "i dont like x-files.....cant never understand what they are talking about...."
so...me, being the one who doesnt watch TV, decided to give it a miss since my mom had these comments.....
i wonder if the previous seasons are on dvd or something...???
::specialist project- storyboard...::
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no comments.....
meeting eddie later (AT PASTA MANIA IN CW.PT!!! YAY!! YUM YUM YUM PASTAAA!!!!!) to show him the work i have done so far.....(which isnt much.....*SIGH*)
i kinda like drawing with the blue color pencil on thick watercolor paper.... hehehehe...
awugh.....WORK HARD U STUPID FLYZ!!!.....*slaps myself*....
::skipped class::
yeah u must be wondering how come i have a blog post so early on my school day....
sigh....
skipped acting and directing today......
coz had headache this morning....
realli....this heat is gettin into me.....eating into my brains........feel so lethargic......
I HATE SINGAPORE's WEATHER!!!!!!!!
::domain name::
uhhhHHhhhHhh........ www.elementblue.com is taken up already....
have to think of another new domain name.... SIIIIGGGHHHHHH
argh....i feel kinda irritated today...
must be the heat...
must be the craving for pasta....
hey~...
didnt update the blog for one day....coz i wasnt feelin well... :(
had a very bad backache (as usual....my backache never went away....) and on top of that, i had a bad headache due to the stupid heat....... ARGH i cant stand the bloodi heat in singapore!!!...
it makes me so lethargic and i dont feel like doing ANYTHING except to submerge myself in water....
thats why i went swimming yesterday despite my headache and backache....... ANYTHING to cool my body down..... and it DID help abit.....
will break this entry into a few parts again~...
::the woman on the bus::
rem i promised to tell you wat i saw on the bus 2 days back?..
well, i saw this woman (in her late 20s or early 30s....hmmMmm...maybe older...) with her hair tied back in two ponytails.... u noe those kind that little kids with hair shorter than shoulder length would tie back in two bunches? one left one right..heheheh...yeah thats how stupid she looked with that hairstyle...
anyway, i thot nothing of her and did not pay so much attn to her UNTIL she started walking up and down the aisle...(is 'aisle' used for buses?..aiya...the middle of the bus la...)....she kept walking up and down past me......so i took a glance at her....
geez....she was wearing a white long sleeve shirt which looked rather STUFFY (it was a hot day, remember?) and altho it was an aircon bus, i was still feeling uncomfy becoz of the heat.....
and on the shirt is a picture of a man and a woman in bridal costume..... (the woman looks like her...)
so i was thinking, "nothing wrong....jus her wedding 'souvenier'...".....den i noticed; all her bags (she carried 3 bags...one big one, one small one and one to put her handphone...) had those badges....(those u can buy for souveniers with pins at the back and some ppl like to pin it on their bags...)...those badges had her wedding pictures.......and oh my god....if only i could count the number of badges she had on her!!!!!!!
the first thot that came to my mind was..."is she mentally stable...?"
she also had blusher applied on her cheeks....so she looked like...a.....lobster.....
and she kept walking up and down and i got rather irritated coz her BAGS kept brushing against my shoulders.....
anyway she got down pretty soon *phew*..... sigh....
i can only make two guesses on what happened to her...
1. she loves her hubby SOOOO much that she wants to bring her wedding photos everywhere she goes...
2. her hubby left her.....dumped her....and she is traumatised...... hahahhahaha~
aiya....i sound so bad...... maybe i shouldnt even say all that..... but.....wat the heck~..
::my dream last nite::
had a weird dream last nite....
i slept rather early.....around 12am....(i usually sleep much later than that...) coz i was super tired after the swim.....
i dreamt i had a son...... (VERY CUTE!!! and he looks chinese...heheheh..no no no....i dont mean china-chinese.....but....aiya...look like a singaporean chinese la *duh*)....
in the dream he was about 5 or 6 yrs old..... the dream didnt tell me who the father is anyway....
i was tucking him up in bed.....i still can remember how nice he smelt.....like a baby.... (u know, most babies smell of johnsen's baby powder...)
and i had to leave him for some reason....... *awwwww*
so i was hugging him and kissing his cheeks...... *awwwwww*
told him not to worry etc etc etc........ so sad rite...
i cant remember much..... and now i feel sleepy again...... *yawn*...
today's weather very nice to sleep....rainy~~~
::domain name::
getting a domain name soon......as sooon as i finish building my site in my comp first....hehehe
was thinking of "www.elementblue.com" since i like the water soooo much......
others include "www.swatflyz.com" (which is STOOPID).... hmMmm...any other suggestions? if not i'd go with "www.elementblue.com"..... pls suggest oki???? thank u thank u~~!!!
::nice song::
a friend gave me this url: www.geocities.co.jp/Milkyway-Lynx/9043/c-song.swf
it's a flash of a very cute cat......singing a very sad song..... :(
almost cried.....
a very very nice song...... i even wrote down the lyrics....:
-Wind's nocturne-
Wishing on a dream that seems far off
Hoping it will come today
Into the starlit night
Foolish dreamers turn their gaze
Waiting on a shooting star
But... What if that star is not to come?
Will their dreams fade to nothing?
When the horizon darkens most
We all need to believe there is hope
Is an angel watching closely over me?
Can there be a guiding light I've yet to see?
I know my heart should guide me but
There's a hole within my soul
What will feel this emptiness inside of me
Am I to be satisfied without knowing?
I wish then for a chance to see
Now all i need Is my star to come....
::final fantasy 10::
im falling deeply in love with ffx...........
i'm almost finishin the game now....left side quests and Sin only heheheheh~~~
i wish they could have more fully rendered scenes like the one where Tidus kissed Yuna... *WOW*....
im falling in love with Tidus.......seriously........ARGH....
*WAKE UP WAKE UP!!! HE'S NOT REAL!!!!!*
(slaps myself awake................*piak piak*)
geez.....
swat me! posted by Inoriz at 8:30 PM
Monday, September 16, 2002
aaayyyyy
in sch now.............(again)
todays weather was like....FREAK ok....
SOOOO DAMN BLOODI HUMID AND HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
had terrible terrible headache today.....all the way to school i was sweating buckets...
and upon reachin school, mi headache was unbearable......
turned down the aircon to 16 degrees and sat under the bloodi aircon...
decided to listen to moi dearest bf and doused mi head in water....
yeah...it worked.... heheheh felt better and cooler...
altho now the headache coming back
argh...
think i write another blog later tonite....mi headache getting worse and worse......
got something farnie to write about this woman i saw on the bus on the way to school today heheheh
i guess the heat is making ppl do weird things..... -____-
i didnt do much today.....slacked my whole day away at home....
was supposed to meet Damian but he had to help his daddy do something~..
so i thot....might as well stay home....clean the animals...and do the storyboard for the specialist....
anyway......i just had a great shock from my dearest sister today.....
was having home-cooked lunch with her and my boifren......and she said that she has a secret.....
she: i have a secret....i cant tell ANYONE....
me: tell me la~...i promise i wont tell...
she: (putting her palm to her chest, indicating that her heart was beatin faster and faster) no.... u will get very worried about me... and mommy too....she will get worried......
me: if you dont tell me, i will be more worried!! (she realli had me worried then...)
this went on for some time... was coaxing her to tell me wat the secret was........ FINALLI....
she (whispering into my ear): i wanna get married...
me (eyes open wide): huh???? to whom???
she (sheepish smile): >my boifren's name< ........
me: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *spichless*.......
AND.....she whispered the same thing to him too....that she wans to marry him.....
OH-MY-GOD........ my TEN yr old sis has a CRUSH on my bf.......................
aaahhhhh~~....wats the world coming to??!?!?......
if she marrys him.......wat does it make me.........?????
hahahhahahahahha.......
geez....my world is really upside down.........
i told mom anyway......mom laughed her head off......
of coz.... she doesnt know i told mom.....
mom giggled the whole nite..........
talking abt mom...... she told me alot abt marriage etc etc..... talked abt me and my 'future' with him..... she even talked abt migration..... hmMmmm.....
all these she spoke in front of my sis who....i sense....wasnt so happy......she somehow got easily agitated....... jealous??? i donno............ hahahahhahaa
*sigh*.....10 yr olds.....WATS on their mind....???
i notice alot of frenz dono how to use the commenting (a.k.a swatting box)...
very easy...
jus click on the 'swatz' link at the bottom of the post u wanna comment on and a new window will appear, showing u all the other comments that the post had and fields for u to fill in.....
fill in the relevant info and click 'comment>' at the bottom~
taa daa!! it's done!
cheerios~~~ posted by Inoriz at 10:03 AM
phoar....today was a looooong day......
got much to write... so i shall break it up into paragraphs with their own titles :) makes reading easier.....
::roads in spore::
i wonder wats with the singapore roads....sun-burnt/ sun-charred/ sun-roasted workers DIG AND DIG AND DIG AND DIG non stop.....
den patch it back......all the tar and fumes....grrrrr.......
i was late for class today coz of all those bloodi diggin......as if there's a gold mine underneath or wat.....WHATS SO INTERESTING IN DIGGIN THE FRIGGIN ROADS?!?!??!?!? purposely make students late for class????
the air in singapore....smells of asphalt.....tar...... *phuke*
::freezing point::
today's fuggin cold..... i hate it when it turns too cold.....(F.Y.I, i can't take cold weather....neither can i take hot and ESP humid weather......im those who need weather which is 'just nice'.... jus a little cold and i'll freeze and jus a little hot and i'll MELT....)
i was freezing in the bloodi CG XSI lab..... mi fingers turned icey and i was shaking my legs till my chair rattled....
den i found out the reason.....
1. it was raining outside.
2. the lab was cold as usual....
3. i didnt bring my jacket *duh*
even the bus stop was cold......altho had sun shining but the wind was unusually cold..... shivered my whole bus journey to marina sq......and friggin got LOST there (i swear and promise my navigation skills will improve once i get a GPS..)....
walked all the way (yeah....got lost on the way) to bras basah to get my art materials for the specialist project....
while walking there....i felt so......giddy and...sick....very bad headache....almost had fainting spell...
wondered why.... den i realised i totally forgot about my meals.... it was close to 7 den.... and the whole day i only ate....one very small plate of french fries in school.....
i really had no appetite and actually forgot abt the meals.... hahahhaa...
had to bear with the giddiness and bought the sketch bks and blue pencils....
den made my way to orchard....
::japanois????::
went into a japanese bookstore (guess which one?) and looked around for final fantasy picture book....(dont even know if it exists...but i saw ff7 before...so just tryin my luck in finding ff8-ff10).....
asked the sales assistant at the desk...n she refered me to this.....young....man.....
his name tag....was some japanese name.....
he has a nice tan and.....oh-my-gosh-can-melt-little-gals kinda look..... *LOL*
i think i seen him around in the store before....but that was long ago....heheheh
anyway, after his colleague told him wat i wanted, he turned and look at me...*pause*....
jap guy (in fluent *duh* japanese): which final fantasy book are u looking for? ff7? ff8? ff9? [note: i understood wat he said but i somehow cant rem the words he said in japanese.... just like i can understand but i can't speak much....]
me (with stupid twinkle in my eye): err... finaru fantashi juu desu (holding up ten fingers and hoping like mad that thats how the japanese say 'final fantasy 10'....)
jap guy (still in japanese): *babble babble* something something but they dont carry it....blah blah.....(basically, they dont have it....)
me (glazed eyes): arigatou...
DAMN! felt like boxing myself....i dono why...hahahha
i lingered around... and guess what?!?!?!? i heard him speak fluent ENGLISH to another customer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he CAN SPEAK ENGLISH...............
i wonder if it really is becoz i look japanese to him..... -_-
i must go check my family history.....seriously this is not the first time ppl mistake me for a japanese and start splutering japanese to me..... hmmmmm~~~...
anyway..went home aft that...hahahha~
::lethargic....fatigue? or....::
i felt really stoned today.....really really stoned despite having a really fun class this morning.....
Acting and Directing.....had us acting ALOT today (as usual)...and when i think of wat we did in class today, i still can smile and laugh...(which, unfortunately, i did break into silly smile while on the bus home, thinking of today's class....*giggles* i could sense people around me moving away...HAHAHHAHAHA)
i feel so...lethargic....so tired...so physically TIRED.......very very stoned.....
but i pushed myself to do so many things today...
but im going to bed after posting this piece and after feeding my animals.......
is this a psychological problem?
i feel somehow it's becoz im really really tired MENTALLY...until i feel the tiredness PHYSICALLY....
anyone had that b4?
i really feel like sleeping for at least 10 days...... undisturbed sleep.....deeeeeep sleeeep....zzzz
::crush?!::
hehehe....feel abit weird saying this but i find someone i know....kinda kute....HAHAHHAHA
he's older than me i think....i donno much about him....(actually i really cant be bothered in knowin him better.....really....despite me finding him kute.....really really really.....)
anyway my crushes only last for a very short while.... hahaha so this will pass~...in fact..... i think i beginning to find him not-so-cute anymore...HAHAHHA
give u a clue....he's in my Acting and Directing class....HAHAHHA
that narrows it down alot ya?~
i think i wrote enuff for today...
it's really too long.....
will zip off now...really damn tired...~~~~
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
p.S: i SWEAR i HATE this template!!!!! posted by Inoriz at 8:12 AM
heya...
havent been updating for long long time...
i hate this template.....but so far it's the best i can do before i get my own domain name.......
talkin abt domain name....@#$%^&* i havent got down to lookin for one yet...... SIGH!
anyway u can now add comments at the bottom of each blog entry.........
just click on the 'swatz'.....
why 'swatz'? u may ask...
thats becoz thats how u kill a fly...
yes....by swattin at it heheheheheh
again...i apologise for this lousy template...
i waiting for shaun to teach me how to edit the templates..........
and mi mind is all boggled by all these frigging codes...
cant they make blogs more idiot proof?????????
im in XSI lab in sch now.....make use of T1 connection hehehehhehe..
i feel so stoned tho....never felt so stoned for many mths already.....
mi eyes oso cant see properly...
going to art fren later to buy some art stuffs for the specialist project...........
very...err..stoned now....
and it's friggin cold here.............
it's raining outside...
argh...
go off now...
too cold....
do add comments ya?
once again..... I HATE THIS FRiGGIN TEMPLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 posted by Inoriz at 1:15 AM
